I have had no communications with Diana since late Thursday afternoon. I called Diana’s brother Thursday night to make him aware of what had happened. David and his wife were planning to drive to our house – departing Wichita KS Friday afternoon and arriving late Saturday. They were planning on spending Easter week with us. Based upon my phone call, they were going to try to leave earlier.
Thursday night, I laid on the couch in our family room. The nurses have taken over the bedroom. I would lay in a manner that I could see Diana resting in the hospital bed. Every time, the nurse went to Diana’s bedside to check on her, I would go into the room. Diana would be lying there peacefully with no motion.
Friday I spent the day standing next to her bed. To see the one you love, just lying in the bed and you know what the end result will be, is very sad. The nurses were asking me if I had made funeral arrangements yet. Why would I do that? I don’t want Diana to die. That is not something I want to do. It was so hard. Every time that I would start to cry I would leave the room. I think I spent more time out of the bedroom than in it. I had no visible communication indications from Diana all day. Although the nurses said that hearing is the last sense to go and Diana may still be hearing me as I told her how much I loved her.
Later that morning, I did call a friend in Frisco. She has lived in Frisco all of her life and knows everyone in town – or used to when it was small. Today the population of Frisco is approximately 100,000. It was only 2,000 when Diana and I moved there 17 years ago. I had decided that I would not have any funeral services in Houston but have them in Frisco. So I called a funeral home in Frisco and made tentative arrangements with them. Diana wants to be cremated. It was a call I never wanted to make. Diana was still in my bedroom – but it was inevitable and had to be done.
Diana’s brother and his wife arrived at midnight. We all spent about an hour at Diana’s bed side before they went to bed. I went back to the couch and just continued to look at Diana. Even though I had had 2 1/2 years to prepare for this date, I was not prepared.